what this all means to me (in english)

(or: an open letter)

im about done for the day; but just in case you didn't get anything i wrote from my phone. just wanted to tell you ask me to turn down the volume but, dont ask me to calm down or get to the point hurriedly; that's all ive ever been trying to ask of everybody since i was around five years old... or, however old i was in first grade.

yes, i can handle being pissed off and calm. when i started school in the u.s. they taught me how to do that. which is only half-joking, really.

that pretty much can stand in for any difficulites you perceived ever from me; but i caused, yes. i caused it. the twist is i didn't realize how low your expectations of me were

the twist is i didn't realize how low your expectations of me were